A GOOD DAY GONE BAD

I was having a good day. I thought maybe i kicked my depressions ass, and my anxiety tooo. But then i was watching E news anddddd it was about kidnapping, my anxiety and sadness came back. WHY CAN I NOT CATCH A BREAK?! im so annoyed with all of this. But tomorrow is a movement where you write LOVE on your hand....or arm...or whatever. So that the people who have depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, etc. will know that people want to support and help them. So be a part of this day and write LOVE on your arm. Because im sure it will be written forever on those peoples hearts.

GROWING UP TO FAST

I feel like i am growing up way, way to fast. my life feels like it is going by to fast but to slow at the same time. I want to go back to when i was a little girl and everything was good. But i want to be 25, in love and with a car and i want to be able to do whatever i want. and not have to ask to have to go to a party in boston, i just wanna be able to go!!!! yaknow? My life needs change, in a positive way. fast.

CAUSE IM A GYPSY, ARE YOU COMING WITH ME?

Cause ima gypsy, are you coming with me?

will a guy stick with me? is the message here.
i need a guy who is in it with me to love me....
anyone know a great guy? haha i dont know any
that arent already taken. So are there any GOOD
GUYS LEFT?!

comment&&lemme know what u thing

craving cigarettes....um wait what?

HAHAHAHA it is the wierdest thing. I had a strange dream lastnight, I always have wierd dreams... but this one meant something more to me. it was about craving cigarrettes.. NOW before anyone jumps to conclusions..ive never even hadddd a cigarettee.. ever. sooo idk why i would wake up craving one?! wierd huh..? I wanted to blog about this because I was wondering...how can you crave something that youve never had? I think its very possible to crave things without ever having them....for example sex, alcohol, cigarrettes, getting drunk. Maybe deeeep down I am craving to break the rules..and try something new. what do you think?

So i was just searching through some other blogs, and i realized something. THEY ARE ALL BORING. I MEAN COME ON. there all about either cooking, family, or prayer. this stuff is good for the average religous housewife. No offence. But I was looking for a blog that not only caught my eye, but for a blog that i could relate to. in school, struggling with many things in life. I found nothing interesting. So I had to wonder....why do blogs have to be boring? when they can be filled with life!!! I want to bring my words to life to my readers, even if there are only a few readers. even if there are no comments. I don't care. this blog is for me and for whoever has an interest in reading it. So here is a fun update! MODERN FAMILY && COUGAR TOWN are on tonight at 9pm&&9:30pm! ALSO a new episode of JERSEY SHORE is on tomorrow at 10pm on MTV! only 2 more episodes left! SO KEEP WATCHING TILL THE VERRRRRRRRRYYY END FANS! QUESTION: who is ur favorite jersey shore cast member? i have many favorites...but i would love to know urs. k thankkks && COMMENT. loveeeee ya

Today was another boring day at school. at least yesterday there was a firedrill to spice up the day, even though it was cold out...it was still so nice to smell FRESH AIR and not SCHOOL STINK. My teachers today told me some bad news... My grades right now are 1 F 4 D's && 1 A . those are horrible for some people, but for me I think it is just about what I deserve. I know I can do better though, I am going to try to at least boost them up to high D's or C's. if possible B's! I want to go to college, I would like to start my own special beauty salon, i would be the head makeup artist and be my own boss of a welcoming fantastic salon! I am OBSESSED with makeup. when I have friends over allllll i do is do there makeup, they don't mind because I do such a great job. not to be cockey.....but I do believe I am talented in exactly 2 things, singing and doing makeup. Well i gotta go, my dad is telling me to do homework.

It is hard to live the life that I have, when everyone elses life around you seems well....perfect. My biggest struggle besides family problems, is my weight. I cannot seem to lose weight, and when I try I fail. I blame it on my family problems...I eat when I am upset. I wish I was like my dad, when he is upset...he does not eat alot. at all. Well lets get to the point! I am here to blog, vent, and ask questions. whether alot of people or only a few people read this....I don't care. I am here to tell a different story every time I post something. Hopefully I can post often, and hopefully I am posting good news! Wanna know what inspired me to create another blog on blogger? The show "Sex and the City". I love how Carrie writes about what is happening in her life, and how she always asks a question after she is finished writing a chapter. So I could'nt help but wonder...when it comes to venting, is a blog all we need to let it out?